no gmail, no fb, no chat

Here are some notes I took during and after my experience... I had some very interesting observations... please read and comment. 

• I deleted my fb notifications to my gmail.
• I waited til 10:30am to check my email, I sent off one email. I closed it. And I was about to open it again, but stopped myself before it fully loaded.
• It’s become instinct to check my email
• Every time I wanted to eat or listen to music, I felt like I couldn't because I had been telling myself no to checking gmail; kinda like the day after fast Sunday when you have the urge to eat you feel like you can’t
• I usually keep gmail open, because I chat with my bf
• I refer to it often because I have purposefully not read certain emails because I don’t have time to when I receive them and so they remain bolded to remind myself to get to it later. My unread emails serve as a check list and reminders.
• I believe it was from “Divine Nations”, it said that humans used to have everything memorize, then came writing, then came audio, then came visual, then came interactive
• We need things to keep us engaged and involved, an experience
• Our memory, as humans, has weakened
• I have reminders on my phone
• I needed to go on email to retrieve a document for a group project and an email from a teacher, but I didn’t go through my emails
• Documents are digital, not in hard copy. We are adapting our systems to be solely digital
• I told some friends about my “fast” and they said, “I couldn’t do it”
• Another girl in the class was refraining from texting.
• I don’t know how I could manage without texting, because there were times when I needed to text rather than call, more convenient
• I could probably survive longer than I think without technology, fb especially, but other rely on it, so I have to in order to keep it touch with them and function in the same way
• I did for a year and a half (mission), only because the people I needed to contact weren’t on fb
• I keep my fb, mainly for mission contacts, my purses, kit with old friends
• My bf thinks I’m addicted to email because it causes me to not eat
• I may justify it by saying I need it to help me remember things I need to do and so I can talk to him
• I think that because I have a laptop, I bring it to campus for convenience; I am accustomed to having email so accessible. When before, it would be long hours until I could check my email.
• I am not as attached to fb as I am gmail. Fb is more for pleasing others. I could go a week without going on. But I feel that people need to get a hold of me, so I go and check what people are trying to communicate to me. I don’t think it serves me a real purpose, only for my bags.

So, I guess I am addicted, but I don't like saying it. I justify it. Cause saying I'm addicted beings such a negative connotation like being addicted to tobacco or alcohol. I am addicted to the action of going on and checking, just because i always have my laptop with me. I don't have a smart phone. I only go onto fb to check messages and such. I try not to stay long, cause I know that someone will catch me in an IM convo when I normally don't have time to chat.